to be quite honest, i don't trust or like most of the people that i hang out with.
they are either stuck up, sometimey, bitches, whores, or all of the above.
NO, i do not want to hear about your fucking problems when you never care about mine.
NO, it's not okay that you take advantage of whatever is in front of you.
NO, acting like you "da shit" doesn't make you, indeed, thee shit. it makes you look stupid.
and NO, you can't pick who you want to talk to at the time based on who is on the room.
the people that i feel closest to are either miles away, or the ones that i feel like i have lost some part of . . . certain parts that i find myself wanting back.
i hate that it's come to this, but i just have to be honest:
i'm not happy with the people that surround me.
to myself is where i like to be, with my words, my thoughts . . .
About me
momentofhonesty - - friends.
2.09.2010
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2.03.2010
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in the words of jada*lenae at 10:59 AM 0 opinions were stated.
fear.
i've got so much fear in my heart
because i'm scared of rejection.
us together is something that i want more than anything . . .
but i fear:
that it will crash and burn,
and i will slowly learn,
that things like this never work.
i have fear in my heart
because i'm afraid of what i see.
the glare of the screen contrasts with that of my skin;
the texture of my hands to the pad of your ipod
the look of my face to the limit of my avatar.
so, i have fear:
of the way we will greet
when we finally meet
and notice the differences.
i have fear in my heart
because this love is too great for me to handle.
my chest pains from the stress
of this love-filled mess,
and it makes me fear:
the way i will react to you then,
and if i will defend
your actions.
crying oceans of saltwater . . .
i show my fear -
but fear is blind:
to the glare of your screen,
and the pad of your ipod,
and what you are limited to of my avatar.
only when our faces near
will my fear
be both acknowledged,
and released.
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