hewillbemissed.

he will be missed, no doubt about that.
on my short time of being on this earth, i've always known that there was an MJ.
but now that he's gone . . it's just like wow.
he was one of my favorite artists, no lie.
thriller has always been my favorite CD.
i could listen to that ALL DAY.

but what really bothers me is the ignorant people on myspace postin dumb shit like we can't mourn his death. i mean, no we don't personally know him, but really tho, it's a loss for the music industry.
that's just like saying we can't be sad that our best friend's uncle's cousin died, just because we didnt know them.
what kind of mess is that ?

all i know is that i am sad about this.

R.I.P. MICHAEL JACKSON
1958 - 2009

inherpurse.

this set is cool.
i wanna do one like this one day, even though i don't carry purses oftenn.

22 June 2009 by Andi Couture featuring JUICY COUTURE accessories

don'tyouhateitwhen

people reply with one word answers ?
like, where can a conversation get with that ?
-"my dog died today" "oh." -"and so i was like . . and she was like . . and we started laughing." "wow."

i dunno about you guys, but when somebody constantly does that, i get the feeling that they aren't interested && i just stop talking to them. i usually do the one word thing when i just don't care about what a person is saying. hmm . .

i had to get up early today *ughh* because maintenance had to be done in the apartmentt.
that's really not a good thing for me seeing that i was up until like three on the phone with deeedeee && dev dev && texting warwar till like threethirty or sumthin. ughh, i'm stupid for only getting like four or five hours of sleep. but im not sleepy anymoree.

i went to the boys && girls club a few days ago. i haven't been back there in YEARS, but it feels like i pretty much grew up there. seeing miss tee was the best. her and mr. mark && all of them remembered me *how could they forget !*. she told me to come back this summer to volunteer . . i asked if they were hiring, but they aren't ):. mann, i'm looking for a job too && how better to work than at a place where i KNOW i'll have fun && i know the employer ? ahah (: but i think i'll use volunteering there as a way to earn my CAS hours next summer for IB.

soo, last weekend i went to mik's house with shamia. we had too much funn. since none of us are legally whipping, we had to walk unless offerred a ride by her parents. but it was cool, cuz the mall was right across the street.
* somebody please tell me why older guys are always trying to hit on younger girls ?! . . okay i think we all know the answer to that . . but really tho, it's kinda sad if you're over your mid twenties tryin to get with a girl in highschool.
but we were getting looked up && down by all of em. can't say i didn't like the attention, but it was kinda annoying at the same time.

*random- mikko thinks i'm immature or childlike in a sense because i don't wanna give older guys the time of day. but i think she's a dumbass for talking to all of these creeps the way she does. i mean, if i met a cute, nice older guy who had a lot of sincerity, i might think differently, but i doubt i ever will talk to an older guy like that. that's just not me.

but here are a few pictures that i've taken recently . .

thewayYOUmakemefeelpart6.

YOU
seem to be the only one around to listen to me these days. thanks, once again.

YOU
are becoming lesser and lesser in my eyes as the days pass by. i no longer need you around me or consider you to be one of my closest friends. i'm not really concerned with this either. maybe it will get better, maybe it wont. the sad thing is, i don't really care.

YOU
made me think this:

i could fcking slap you right now. do you even know what it means to back
the hell off of somebody's potential ? no, you don't. but i bet you wouldn't
like it if i started to be all over - - - - - - -, now would you ? we'll see
about that.

you seem to only be about yourself. just because you're having a fucked up
time && seem to have trouble getting the attention that you want doesn't
mean you need to go for what I or anybody else wants. i'd advise you to keep you hands to yourself && find your own because messing with other peoples seconds is really not cool.

YOU

never cease to make me smile. i'm glad that we are talking again, because you are by far the best friend that i have made this year. even though we went through all of that mess nearing the end of the year, my feelings for you have not gone away; they have only gotten stronger. from the start, you were a great friend. i learned to trust you very early into the year && it wasn't long until i could say that you were the one i could turn to for anything, especially problems with my dad && such. losing you as a friend, or thinking that i had lost you as a friend, really bothered me. it may not have seemed like it, but it really did. i'm glad that you initiated us working things out because i really wanted to, i just didn't know how. i love that now there's no anonymity between us. everything is out there . . so i guess now, whatever happens happens. only the future can tell. P.S.; i am looking forward to this year (:

YOU
are a peice of work. words can't explain what i think of you now . . because i don't know what to think of you. he tells me to disregard all of that && they agree that it is so wrong, but i just don't know. it's like we were okay, then this hits me && i just . . DON'T KNOW. the friendship will stay in tact, but i definitely know now to never trust you.

shesamazing.

PRISCILLA RENEA IS SUCH AN AMAZING LYRICIST.

i mean, really.
i love all of her lyrics; they are so true.
but this song, i keep replaying it. it's her cover of best i ever had.
check it out.
*i'm trying to figure out how to get this on my pagee.

summersummersummertime(:

is not going to be as boring as i thought it would be !

gosh, i'm only a day into it && things are just . . great.

friend drama ?
i'm so over that. last year is last year && we can forget about everything because i'm not angry anymore, even though i kind of want to be, i'm not. there's no point, it's useless. mainly, that just taught me who i can depend on, who i can turn to, && who is really there for me. thank you to everybody who affected me - negatively or positively, because no matter how i was affected by you, at least i learned something in the process. on the other side of friend drama, i'm simply not concerned, or as kelly would say, "i refuse to be concerned." lmfao.
but, i'm gonna do a whole separate post on all of the things i've learned this year.

in other summer news . .
my bestest bestest friends are coming back to VA !
ooooohhh emmmmm geeee ! i'm excited.
alexis is only gonna be here for the summer, but i glad she's even gonna be here for that because i miss her.
taylor is moving back, which is BIGG NEWSS ! she moved away in the sixth grade && i haven't seen her in like . . four years. this is gonna be great. i miss that girl && i remember all of the fun times we had. time ot make some more memories ! (:
leah . . well it's undecided where she will be, but it'd be cool if she moved back to NN too, especially this summer.

the whole gang reunited . . . wouldn't that be a sight to see ? aha (:
i'm gladd, because i thought this summer was gonna be blahh. but this just brightened up my day.

i can't wait. (:

myspacetopeight.

so i was just on myspace, looking at stuff && i realized;

my top friends really misrepresents my relationships.
i really don't agree with it, at all. && no matter what order i put the people in, it doesn't seem to make sense.

i think myspace should change it && make it so that the people that you add to your top can be randomized.
this would prevent petty arguements over "your higher on my top than i am on yours" && ignantshit like that.
it would also take my confusion away, so i'd no longer be paranoid about my friendships.

another thing they could do is something like facebook has, where you can choose best friends or sumthin like that, then have the rest of the people on your top designated as just "top friends."
i can't explain that too much, but if you get it, then good.

but i really don't know.
maybe i'm just thinking too hard on it . . but it irks me how i can't find a good order.

maybe that's because friends shouldn't have an order.
or maybe it's because i'm not as close to a lot of the people on my top as i thought i was, but i'm too busy trying to BE close that i dont realize that . . ?