jeremih.

is freakinn beautiful !
perfect skin, nice lips, unique voice, just heavenlyy.

substitute teachers are the bestt.

stole this from deanna. lmfao, mann i swear this dudes voice was mad annoying.
im sittin there lookin all clueless && whatnot.
but this is from a few months ago.

comments.

i figured out why i never get any comments.

the comment button was like, dysfunctional.
but i think i fixed it (:

*JiZZAoutt;

thewayYOUmakemefeelpart4.

** note; i wrote the first two a few days ago. some feelings have changed since then.

YOU
are my best friend. i realize that i only need one best friend in this fcked up world && that person is you. thanks for being there.

YOU
can leave. plain && simple. im tired of tryin. && even when i'm the ONLY one there, you still treat me like crap. so i guess it's time to move on. let's see how you feel when you realize that all of the other people never cared as much as me. P.S. ; i could've given up on you at ANY point throughout this year considering all of the times you've given me reason to . . but did i ? ; take a look around and admire the friends [or people that you think are] that you have left around you cuz now, i'm G O N E . i can't wait until the day you realize what a great friend i was to you - - i really don't mean to sound arrogant, but it is true.

YOU
confuse the shxt outta me. make up your mind; WHERE DO YOU WANT TO BE ? because i'm not always gonna be there like your little ventriloquist dummy so either you do or you don't. i need to know because opportunities are hitting me like the chill of january weather, so swallow your pride and just say it. really tho, considering all of the things that have happened lately, i dont really know if i'd take your offer even if it was given to me. you have proven me wrong on so many different levels; you're not as perfect && great as i once thought you were - && no, i'm not asking you to be perfect . . i'm just asking you to be true. but it's obvious that just isn't something that you are capable of doing long term, or even short term at that.

YOU
are annoying. leave me alone, lose my number, && have a nice life. kayy ? thxx.

that'swhatyougetwhenyouletyourheartwin.

so this weekend was okay.

not boring, but not hoorah hoorah either.

FRIDAY
- - went to jae's game with kelly. i had fun, no credit due to the actual basketball game, but talking to kelly is what really made it interesting. i discovered some new things that i hadn't known before && it made me think about it pretty much all weekend. but i kinda decided that words don't mean a thing if you can't back your actions up with it, so to the person that i am referring to youcanstillleave because you say one thing but turn around and do the complete opposite. ooo yeah, two can surely play that game.

SATURDAY
- - i thought i was going to the mall, but instead i went to ruby tuesday with mi madre && then to visit my godmother's mother, my godbrother, godsister, && her baby. he is SOOOO cute ! like seriously, just adorable. i'll post pictures one day.

SUNDAY
- - went to busch with kelly, jessie, && erin. i feel like i haven't hung out with erin in ages, it was nice to be with her. sadly, we didn't make any new "friends" but we did see a couple of ppl that we would have liked to befriendd. aha. it started raining && even tho it stopped a little, we left busch garden's early && went to jessie's house. we didn't stay at her house long bc we went to jae's which was interesting bc i realized that jaelynn runs like a crackhead ! lmfao omgg you had to see herr ! but we all got tired of being eaten up by mosquitos so kelly's dad came to get us && we all went home. [that had to be the best day of my weekend]

MONDAY
- - blahhh. woke up around noon && went to my grandma's to eatt. saw the fam [aunt, grandparents, cousin] then left around fivee. now im homee typing this (:



oo yeah; my first vlogg got some good feedback ! maybe i'll make more videos (:

P.S.; it amazes me how i have 30 followers && barely any commenters. =|

first video blog.

idk how often i will do these, but here ya go.
&& my voice sounds deep . . =|

thewayyoumakemefeelpart3.

YOU
are taking me by surprise. never never NEVER in a million years would i have thought that i'd even be thinking of you the way i have been or seeing you in the light that i see you in now . . you make me laugh when i'm having a bad day && i never wanna see the day that we won't be friend's anymore.

YOU
have been my friend ever since i was a confused sixth grader. you have taught me that words are more powerful than any of us could ever imagine, because i would have never thought that my words could mean that much to someone . . especially through a medium such as the computer. boyy, i'm gonna miss you to death. why did you have to end what was so precious so soon ? i love you as if you were here with me in VA && even tho you are gone, that's never gonna change. R.I.P.

YOU
are a mystery. you could be the missing piece to the puzzle that i've been pondering over so long . . or you could just be another person to pass through my life. regardless of "what you are in my life", you are a great friend. or at least i thought so . .

YOU
are a question mark in my book. anonymous you are; still unidentified, but hopefully you will come around soon. i have a feeling it could be you, or maybe even you. you are a stranger but still everything that i want and need.

YOU
used to be one of my favorite people. but those feelings are long gone and i doubt that they will ever return. the way you treat people on certain occassions is really unnecessary and hopefully soon you will realize how rude and wrongg it really is. i dont think you know exactly what the things you do mean to people - you confuse the people who are supposed to be your friends into thinking that you feel some type of way when really, you're just blowing them off for the heck of it. I really believe that if you continue to treat people like this you will loose what could potentially be good friends, but until you
change your behavior, things will remain the same. P.S. : you can't
play a group of friends without them finding out, dumbass.

YOU
are wrong on so many levels. if i could, i would call you out on ALL of your wrong doings . . but that's something that i'm not gonna do because that would be totally unnecessary and triflin but just kno that i kno && that i will never again trust you the way i once did. i thought i had gotten rid of all the twofaced people and trash in my life . . but obviously i have some more cleaning to do. on second thought . . maybe i shouldn't even blame you; why should i ? it's not like we all haven't fallen victim to it. it's just a shame on your part that it had to happen in the way that it did.